so yea. feeling a bit better about stuff. thats pretty much it. peace.

So this weekend I met my girlfriend's long-time family friends. At first I was optimistic about it, but as it went on...all they wanted to do was make me feel uncomfortable, and it just got to the point where they just seemed to be scrutinizing everything about me, and I've fucking had enough of that in my life. And to make matters worse, all I could do afterwards was go through the huge fucking list of things that are wrong with me, and I kinda really hate myself right now. I'm so sick of people not approving of me, and I know you are just supposed to "Ignore what other people say, who cares what they think" but...I can't. I just really want people to like me. Why is that such a bad thing? I know its really pathetic, but...really, why can't that happen? On top of all this, I realized yesterday how fucking depressing this summer is going to be. All my friends are going away (including my girlfriend) for most of the summer, and my family can't even go anywhere because of the fucking economy and my parents are struggling to make ends meet. I still dont have a fucking drivers license or a job, and to make everything just a LITTLE BIT harder, I just found out that my girlfriend got the part of the whore in her upcoming play, and I have to watch her make out on stage with a bunch of different guys. AS IF I DIDN'T HAVE ENOUGH FUCKING INSECURITY AND PARANOIA PROBLEMS ALREADY!!!!!!!!!! If there is a god, he is one sick, twisted and sadistic mother fucking bastard. fuck this.

1) Choose one of your own characters (OC).
2) Make them answer the following questions.
3) Then tag three people.
4) Feel free to add some questions of your own.

You tell me who should answer these - Wyland

1) What gender are you? - Male


2) What is your age? - 25


3) Do you want a hug? - Is it Andrea?


4) Do you have any bad habits? - haha, sleeping in too late.


5) What is your favorite food? - Hahaha, a certain someone's blood

6) What is your favorite ice-cream flavor? - Don't know, lots of different ones to choose


7) Are you a virgin? - HAHA, nooo...


8) Have you killed anyone? - ...yea...


9) Do you hate anyone? - Yes. Alot. With all of my soul.


10) Do you have any secrets? - Osiris


11) What is your favorite season? - Spring


12) Who is your best friend(s)? - Andrea ,Ailyxe. Samaris?(Does that count if she's my sister?). Serenity.


13) What are your hobbies? - Spending all day in bed Spending Time with my awesome theatre troupe! Hanging with Ailyxe. Etc.

14) What is your favorite drink? - Same as my favorite food


15) When is your birthday? - November 1st.


16) What age did you die? - Uh...not dead yet.... and unless my brother kills me I never will be.


17) Are you nice or mean? - I'd like to think I'm nice


18) Are you social or shy? - ....I lead a freaking Theatre Troupe...


19) What do you think of your parents? - Which ones?


20) What’s your weakness? - ...


21) How long can you stay under water? - Forever if need be


22) What do you do on a regular day basis? - uh, sleep, fight, fuck (haha, just kidding.)

23) Do you love someone? - Does that even need to be asked? OF COURSE I FUCKING DO!! (Wyland Andrea)


24) When was the last time you wet your self. - uh...when i was 3?

25) What's your favorite band? - Hmm...don't know.


26) Ever worn a dress? - I WAS FORCED!!!


27) Willingly? - ...see above...


28) What do you consider fun in the day-time? - Sleeping, staying in bed, going to the park, etc.


29) At night? - same


30) Ever kissed anyone? - YES!!!


31) ...Of the same gender? - does CPR count?


32) It's clear you're gay. - hfuckplz: Uh...yea...Fuck off...im not. Andrea can attest to that.


33) What’s you're favorite thing to touch? - Uh...i'm getting uncomfortable with these questions...


34) Anyone loves you? - Yes, very much so.


35) What’s your favorite colour? - Chocolate Brown (like someone's eyes) Emerald green, Sapphire blue


36) When was the last time you cried? - ha, last night. Nightmares.


37) Do you have a pet? - nope, not allowed in the appartment


38) What did you name your pet? - ...N/A...


39) Are you crazy? - haha, I certainly think so, but Andrea doesn't


40) What are you? - An Archangel


41) What´s your nickname? - Wy, Arourus


42) Do you consider yourself a happy or a down person? - depends


43) If you were a superhero, you'll be...? - uh...me? hahaha


44) Favorite movie? - Oh, Fight Club, Slumdog, Angels in America


45) What is your current occupation? - Theatre troupe director.


46) What do you think of your creator? -
Hahaha, now HE'S insane.

I tag

this is being bored in advisory

1. [x] Forgot to put the lid on the blender, turned it on, and had everything fly out
2. [x] Gotten your head stuck between the stair rails
3. [x] Broken a chair by leaning back in it
4. [x] Had gum fall out of your mouth while you were talking
5. [x] Choked on your own spit while you were talking
6. [x] Had people tell you that you are blond when you're not, or had people tell you that your blond highlights are going to your head
7. [x] Been caught staring at your crush by your crush
8. [x] Have looked for something for at least 5 min then realized it was in your hand
9. [x] Tried to push open a door that said pull
10.[x] Tried to pull open a door that said push

Running total: 10

11. [x] Have actually believed someone when they said that they knew how to make a love-potion
12. [x] Have hit yourself in the process of trying to hit something else
13. [x] Have tripped and fallen UP the stairs
14. [x] Have actually exploded marshmallows in the microwave
15. [x] Have gotten gum stuck in your hair
16. [x] Had gum fall out of your mouth while trying to blow a bubble
17. [x] Have had the juice from a mini tomato squirt out and hit somebody else when you bit into it
18. [X] Have had your drink come out your nose because you were laughing so hard
19. [x] Have called one of your good friends by the wrong name
20. [x] Have skinned your toe because you were playing soccer or kickball with flip flops on or you were barefoot

Running total: 20

21. [x] Have put a sticker on your forehead, forgot it was there, and went out in public with it on
22. [X] Have fallen out of a moving vehicle
23. [x] Have run into a closed door
25. [X] Searched for your cell phone while you were talking on it
26. [x] It has taken you longer than 5 min to get a joke
27. [x] Have gotten your hair stuck in a blow dryer
28. [x] Have gotten your hair stuck in a fan
29. [x] Tripped on a crack in the sidewalk
30. [X] Said o'clock after saying how many min after the hour, example: 5:30 o'clock, or 6:15 o'clock
Running total: 30

31. [X] After someone told you that there was gum on the ground, you stepped in it
32. [X] Put on a white shirt even though you already knew it was raining outside
33. [x] Have ever walked up to a stranger because you thought they were someone else
34. [x] Ever been kicked out of a grocery store/off their property
35. [x] Touched the stove, the curling iron, a hot pan, etc when its on, even though you knew it was hot
36. [x] Taken off your clothes to change into something else then accidentally put the old clothes back on.
37. [x] Wondered why something wasn't working then realized it wasn't plugged in
38. [x] Put the cereal in the fridge, or put the milk in the cupboard
39. [x] Walked into a pole
40. [x] Wore two different earrings or shoes by accident/stolen someones shoes by accident

Running total: 40

41. [x] took a picture of someone's eye with the flash on
43. [x] Gotten a ring stuck on your finger because you put it on even though you knew it was too small
44. [x] Walked out of the bathroom (stall) with toilet paper stuck to your shoe without realizing it
45. [x] Went to go do something/go get something, then when you got there, you forgot what it was that you were going to do
46. [x] Picked up someone else's drink and drank out of it by accident when your drink was right next to it
47. [x] Fallen out of your chair while trying to pick something up
48. [x] Have poked yourself in the eye
49. [x] Have gotten in the shower with your socks still on
50. [x] Melted your hairbrush while blow drying your hair

Running total: 50

51. [x] Have done enough stupid things to make a test
52. [x] Have accidentally stabbed yourself with a pencil
53. [x] Have sung the wrong verse to a song without realizing it
54. [x] Have given an odd answer to a question because you didn't hear the question in the first place and didn't feel like asking what it was
55. [x] Told someone you were the wrong age because you seriously forgot how old you were
56. [X] Looked into an overhead purposefully while it was on
57. [X] Got up early and got ready for school/work, then realized that you didn't have school/work that day
58. [x] Forgot your own phone number
59. [x] Have tripped on a cord after someone told you to watch out for it
60. [x] Have ever laughed at a joke that no one else thought was funny

Running total: 60

61. [X] Done the Macarena to the electric slide or vice versa
62. [x] Said funner then had someone make fun of you for it
63. [x] Have repeated yourself at least twice in the same sentence
64. [x] Brought up an inside joke with the wrong person
65. [x] Didn't do the backside of an assignment because you thought that there wasn't one because you had already looked and forgot that there was another side
66. [x] Did more work than you had to on an assignment because you didn't read the directions
67. [x] Corrected someone's grammar/pronunciation then figured out that you were the one that was wrong
68. [x] Put something in a special place so that you would remember where it was, then forgot where you put it
69. [x] Put ice in your drink after the glass was full of liquid and had it splash out
70. [x] Told a lie then forgot what it was that you had said and got caught

Running total: 70

71. [x] When wearing goggles, you pulled them away from your face and let go so that they would come back and snap you in the face
72. [x] Forgot to make sure that the lamp was off before you replaced the light bulb
73. [X] Ran into a door jam
74. [X] Told someone that you hardly ever do stupid things, then immediately did/said something stupid
75. [x] Told someone to watch out for something, then you were the one that ran into it
76. [x] Have purposely licked playground sand
77. [x] Have purposely and repeatedly flicked yourself with a rubber band
78. [x] Gotten so hyper that someone actually thought you were drunk when you weren't
79. [x] Have been so hyper you actually scared people
80. [x] Put duct tape on your body then pulled it off to see if it would hurt

Running total: 80

81. [x] Put tape on someone else's hair then pulled it off
82. [x] Put a clothes pin/hair clip on your lip, figured out that it hurt, then did it again
83. [x] Sat and wondered why men's dress shirts have a loop on the back
84. [x] Made up a code name for someone so that you could talk about them to someone else and no one else would know who you were talking about
85. [x] Have gotten a hairbrush stuck in your hair.
86. [x] Used the straw to blow the straw wrapper at someone.
87. [x] Shaved your tongue because you thought your taste buds looked funny
88. [x]When at a restaurant, you used your spoon to fling stuff at people
89. [X] Have flung forks at people in a restaurant
89. [X] Tripped and made the waiter drop the food.

Running total: 89

91. [X] As you are writing, you move/moved your head back and forth with your pen/pencil
92. [x] Have drawn finger puppets on your fingers then named them
93. [x] Have wrapped someone in a roll of toilet paper
94. [x] Have used somebody else's toothbrush without even realizing it wasn't yours
95. [x] Have started telling a story and forget what you were talking about or what happened in the story
96. [X] Read a whole book but during the whole book you weren’t even paying attention
97. [x] You have spelled your own name wrong before
98. [X] When lying in bed you look for pictures in the texture of the ceiling
99. [x] Have used your calculator as a form of communication in a class
100.[x] Have popped a balloon in your mouth

...100...i've done all of these...wow, wtf...im so incredibly pathetic...

Ok, so, the friday before last my grandfather passed away. I was really close to him, so It was really hard. I miss him alot. The wake and funeral were tuesday and wednesday of last week, and they were both really tough. i had a really sucky week.

This past weekend was the Wiz at Nk and The wizard of Oz at SK. The wiz had some amazing acting, singing, dancing (definatley recognized some moves from 42nd street ) and awesome technical stuff, but i just think a different show should have been done. I told this to someone, who then put it up on facebook that i hated everything in the show, so now a bunch of ppl are mad at me. I just want to say im sorry, i shouldn't have said that, but i loved everyone's PERFORMANCE, just not the show ITSELF.

Anyway, The Wizard of Oz at SK was freaking amazing. They did an awesome job and anyone who didn't see it missed out.

On the DOWN side again, I haven't gotten much alone time with my girlfriend, and i miss her like all hell, and i keep having nightmares that keep me up at night and make me lose a lot of sleep. So that really sucks.