So this weekend I met my girlfriend's long-time family friends. At first I was optimistic about it, but as it went on...all they wanted to do was make me feel uncomfortable, and it just got to the point where they just seemed to be scrutinizing everything about me, and I've fucking had enough of that in my life. And to make matters worse, all I could do afterwards was go through the huge fucking list of things that are wrong with me, and I kinda really hate myself right now. I'm so sick of people not approving of me, and I know you are just supposed to "Ignore what other people say, who cares what they think" but...I can't. I just really want people to like me. Why is that such a bad thing? I know its really pathetic, but...really, why can't that happen? On top of all this, I realized yesterday how fucking depressing this summer is going to be. All my friends are going away (including my girlfriend) for most of the summer, and my family can't even go anywhere because of the fucking economy and my parents are struggling to make ends meet. I still dont have a fucking drivers license or a job, and to make everything just a LITTLE BIT harder, I just found out that my girlfriend got the part of the whore in her upcoming play, and I have to watch her make out on stage with a bunch of different guys. AS IF I DIDN'T HAVE ENOUGH FUCKING INSECURITY AND PARANOIA PROBLEMS ALREADY!!!!!!!!!! If there is a god, he is one sick, twisted and sadistic mother fucking bastard. fuck this.